The world we live in....

Sometimes I forget what the world we live in really is.  I am so concerned about me, my relationship with Ryan, the perfect life I am trying to create for us, bills, paying off my stupid car, looking super cute every day, having the best clothes, the top of the line phone and computer.  I break down when I make dinner wrong or something just isn't going my way.  That is my biggest problems in life, dinner, and things I can't control.  For me, thats everything, the world is falling apart and its super traumatic!  But then I read the news, or talk to people at work or friends and its such a smack in the face.  I have hear all about death, drugs, killings, rapping's, bankruptcy, people loosing their baby's.... and its just devastating.  I find it funny that i fall apart over the stupidest things, when much bigger events are happening... and definitely more tragic.
I think I just needed to be reminded that my life and my problems are just a speak of dust, that they really dont matter and i just need to get over myself.  I guess thats my problem though....  i am a DRAMA QUEEN.... I admitted it, and it will never be repeated.